At the center of where?





It's of course about placing things in the center.

Amsterdam was so bright and airy. I recall bikes. Other things I remember: beautiful men and women riding everywhere on their slender bikes, and the city, brightly-lit and well-ventilated, filled with people constantly riding away into the distance, a calm expression on their faces and a cup of take-away coffee or a mobile phone on their left or right hand, depending on which one they use to steer their bikes, and that, now, is a problem with some degree of philosophical depth, a deeply meaningful question, even: with which hand should we steer our lives? Right or left? In either case are we really steering it?

And yes of course it's always about placing things in the center.

At the center of my life is... so many things. I don't dare to mention names for fear of jinxing it. You get older and you veer towards superstition because it's kinda comforting. Or you google symptoms fearing your small ailment might mask full-blown cancer. Sickness and death, always at the back of your head. So you seek God. You read books by Carl Sagan or people who claim to know the truth, and you lean on people who are firm, knowing that you are not so firm yourself.

A few themes repeat themselves throughout your life. Again you are scared of being too specific. Religion, for one, permeates your life, even though you consider yourself unreligious. It is a sense of mortality, I suppose, that makes you a better person. It makes you feel the ground, the solidity and realness of it, and reminds you repeatedly that life is not a neverending play. The one thing you know and understand is that plays end, sometimes abruptly and without a coherent conclusion.

At the center of where again?

What a mystery.

4 comments:

September 19, 2011 at 11:12 PM Amelia said...

This is so beautifully written. Now I have to think about what's in the center of my life.

Amsterdam is a fascinating place.

September 20, 2011 at 5:34 AM Samantha said...

Your writing is as beautiful as how your shop used to be.

Unpretentious and quietly comforting. Thank you.

April 27, 2015 at 4:07 PM lin liyi said...

Bank rolex replica uk ended up being involving a state wardrobe and you could at this moment pick out a person for your exquisite glance. Should the times with different watches seemed to reach a sundown as a consequence of beginning with these products when cellular phone tag heuer replica sale, gadget pc's which will incorporate a time-keeping machine, bank different watches bring united states by way of wonder which has an unmatched return. Being good lover if hublot replica sale reaches different watches usually means being aware of where to shop for good deals, with the ability to reference reputable sellers with creator and also deluxe companies, responsible sellers stocking old different watches, suppliers addressing high physical activities different watches and various distinctive styles that could be effortless fail to see - without the need of a small amount of studying. First, pay for these folks exclusively originating from a reputable car dealership having your long-lasting hublot replica sale plus a student ended up with success going its business enterprise considering months. See some shopper reviews and show off right up quite a few assessments in addition. You might have a variety of recommendations including a fine hublot replica uk will demonstrate many of the suitable points pertaining to all these bath rugs.

October 2, 2015 at 11:41 AM mao qiuyun said...

ray ban sunglasses, http://www.raybansunglassesonline.us.com/
nike trainers, http://www.niketrainers.me.uk/
gucci handbags, http://www.guccihandbags-outlet.co.uk/
herve leger, http://www.herveleger.us.com/
timberland boots, http://www.timberlandboots.name/
coach outlet online, http://www.coachoutletonline-store.us.com/
michael kors outlet, http://www.michaelkorsoutletcanada.in.net/
juicy couture outlet, http://www.juicycoutureoutlet.net/
calvin klein underwear, http://www.calvinklein.in.net/
ray ban sunglasses, http://www.raybansunglass.us.com/
prada outlet, http://www.pradaoutlet.us/
lululemon outlet, http://www.lululemonoutletstore.in.net/
tory burch shoes, http://www.toryburchshoesoutlet.com/
michael kors outlet, http://www.michaelkorsoutlet.org.uk/
replica watches, http://www.replicawatchesforsale.us.com/
pandora jewelry, http://www.pandorajewelryoutlet.us.com/
nfl jerseys wholesale, http://www.nfljerseys-wholesale.us.com/
michael kors outlet, http://www.michaelkorsoutletonlinstore.us.com/
oakley outlet, http://www.oakleyoutlet.in.net/
oakley sunglasses, http://www.oakleysunglasses-outlet.us.com/
michael kors bags, http://www.michaelkorsbags.uk/
ray ban sunglasses, http://www.ray-bansunglasses.eu.com/
oakley sunglasses, http://www.oakley.in.net/
air max 2015, http://www.airmax2015.in.net/
the north face uk, http://www.thenorthfaces.org.uk/
swarovski outlet, http://www.swarovski-outlet.co.uk/
pandora jewelry, http://www.pandora.eu.com/
chanel handbags, http://www.chanelhandbags-outlet.co.uk/
1002maoqiuyun