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what are some of your most vivid dreams?

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this is one of mine:

i can't remember the earlier fragments of the dream anymore. my memory starts from the part where i find myself in this chaotic city. night had fallen, people were running about frantically, but there were bright lights everywhere. suddenly, i found that i was rushing towards this building which later turned out to be a hospital.

you know what's the strange thing about dreams? it's like you can't control your dream-self. you are merely an observer - your dream-self has its own memories and urges and internal desires, and all you can do is look on.

so i found myself anxiously waiting for the lift to bring me up into the upper floors of the hospital, although i didn't know what i was anxious about. there was a woman next to me. i was supposed to know her, but she didn't seem to have much of a recognizable face. the lift came and brought us up.

we got out of the lift and stepped into the hospital. it was equally chaotic, everyone was rushing around and it seemed like the end of the world to me. it was a depressing sight. suddenly, i was begging the nurse to bring me to see someone. i knew the person's name, i had a clear image of her in my head, and i was hoping that she'd be in the hospital (i also knew she was badly injured), but i actually hadn't seen her before.

as the nurse led me to her, i was wrecked with emotions, worried that she wouldn't be in the hospital. if she wasn't there, i would never be able to see her again.

i was also panicking because i knew that the hospital was going to come under attack. it was as if i had taken a time machine back in time. i knew exactly when the planes would crash into the building (yes, a la sept 11), so i really wanted to see the girl before i escaped the building. just one time. and if i could, i would save her as well, but in my heart i knew that that was impossible. i had to leave her behind in order to save myself.

the dream got to the part where I finally saw her. the girl was very badly injured and could barely speak, but she was still so beautiful. i remember panicking because i knew that there was very little time left.. then it was time to leave and i just left her behind. i ran to the stairs and tried to go down as fast as i could, but for some reason there was a strong resistance and i couldn't go down......

(after note: before this dream, i had many recurring, similar ones about being in a burning, chaotic city, and in each of these dreams i was always losing someone i love deeply. i have been trying to decipher the meaning of these dreams. did something like that happen to me before, perhaps in a past life?)


here's another one:

i am wandering around in a shopping mall, and then suddenly i find myself floating outside the building. i have grown wings and i am flying up into the sky, higher & higher, and i am attempting to touch the sun. the scene is splendid, great clouds permeated with the light from the sun, but i am terrified. it is a fucking scary feeling. i look down and i am filled with enormous fear, paralysing despair. i am reaching the end of the atmosphere and i am reaching the sun but then suddenly i stop flying. i fall through the sky and wake up, desperate.

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dreams are wonderful.

tell me about yours!