one question at a time

my 2nd question:

are you secretly in love with someone now?

PS: i am not secretly in love with anyone now. (not really) maybe i am, i don't know.


June 19, 2009 at 1:39 AM Anonymous said...

i was not-so-secretly in love with someone. when nothing happened and the distance between us grew both physically and not-physically, i think what i really felt strongly stopped.

i am in like with many people. s is really kind and honest, pure (and very cute) but no i don't think so. m is an enigma surrounded by an air of sadness, and i want to help her get out of the dark, but again, i know for certain: no. i have known e for 9 years not knowing that she is this smart and funny. we battle our wits on a daily basis, but i don't feel it is a yes.

i don't feel very bad liking so many people at the same time. in fact perhaps to some they don't even constitute "liking" all that much. perhaps it is just a way to spend my time. they are people i could see a possibility of something more happening, in a parallel universe. yet strangely, i know nothing will because i do not want anything to.

so i believe i am still secretly in love with the person from the past. so secret, that even i can't grasp it some times.

i want something to jumpstart my heart. it is beginning to rust.


June 19, 2009 at 2:14 AM Anthony said...

Yes, I think I am starting to fall in love with her. I think I know I am because I am starting to want to give her some part of me. It's almost inexplicable. I don't know if I even know what love is, but I do know I am starting to care about her alot. =)

June 19, 2009 at 3:29 AM R said...

dear k,

are you the k that i think you are?


June 19, 2009 at 3:31 AM R said...


wow...good luck with her :)

June 19, 2009 at 9:56 AM Zheng said...

Quite the contrary really, theres this girl that I not so secretly like, think I took her frequent companionship for granted... Only when she chose another guy to go out with, that I realised what I lost... I think its love, only it can feel so painful...

June 19, 2009 at 10:42 AM Anonymous said...

Yes. I'm in love with that distant image of the person that I would desperately like to love; except that person does not exist.

Yet on the other hand, I think I could go by this life not knowing love.

Ah, the dilemma of being at the age where you're between being jaded by love and yet you keep on fervently hoping that true love really does exist.


June 19, 2009 at 12:34 PM m said...

I am in love with that someone but its no more a secret because i have make known to him.

I maybe the bravest or the most foolish person who confessed even thou i know maybe it will lead to nowhere. Leaving no trace of regrets, I LIKE YOU!!
(and that a big shout-out).

June 19, 2009 at 12:50 PM Lavanya said...

It feels like I've always been. :]

June 19, 2009 at 1:12 PM Anonymous said...

i think i love L, but i want to know what love is. i don't believe in racing hearts because that is infatuation. love is a little more, but what is it...?

June 19, 2009 at 1:27 PM R said...

it's amazing to read through all the replies.

i don't have a faint idea what love is all about either. most of the time i am just stumbling through, hoping to come out of it alive. haha.

i am always secretly in love with people though.

June 19, 2009 at 1:58 PM tin said...

u mean crush?

June 19, 2009 at 3:00 PM Anonymous said...

dear r,

i don't know if i am the k you think i am. perhaps?

the confusing thing about love, is that for some relatively more retarded species, we have no idea what it is till we get hit by the shock of its aftermath. it is not nice. but you do learn something out of it.


June 19, 2009 at 5:32 PM Anonymous said...

fortunately, i'm not.


June 19, 2009 at 10:28 PM jonathanNG said...

perhaps...but who knows what love really is?

is it a smile from that someone that makes even the worst day a good one?

ohno...i think i am...

June 19, 2009 at 10:50 PM Anonymous said...

I don't think so, but sometimes my heart keeps secrets from me!

June 20, 2009 at 12:11 AM Anonymous said...

i am but i refuse to acknowledge it... because love binds one down

June 20, 2009 at 12:39 AM Anonymous said...

this topic is just damn apt for me at this moment! and its really interesting to read these replies...
i think i have fallen for someone but she is so different from what i am. i am not sure if she can sense it..she is like an iceberg and an enigma :i
i think it wouldnt work out and i am too scared to use too much heart again. then again, i believe in trying but i just dont know how. i should just keep it a secret la!


June 20, 2009 at 12:44 AM R said...


yes, it's always quite scary to use "too much heart". i never want to put in too many feelings, cos i'm too insecure! haha. and i never had the courage to tell the person that i like him/her. it's much easier to keep it a secret than to deal with the aftermath of it all!


June 20, 2009 at 1:18 AM Anonymous said...

i wish he would confess and stop making me guess. ):

June 20, 2009 at 1:35 AM Anonymous said...

im secretly in love with a fragment of my imagination.

June 20, 2009 at 2:09 AM JeanC said...

When I catch myself 'eyeing' someone, I tend to tell myself to switch off. Maybe it's a fear to let love grow within my heart, lest it is not reciprocated. Maybe it's just self emotional protection.

I'd prefer the other party to make the choice before I think I have a choice to love or not.

Am I cowardly??

June 20, 2009 at 12:38 PM SY said...

Now? No... openly in love.

When I'm secretly in love, it often happens very soon that its not a secret anymore. HAHA.

June 20, 2009 at 3:56 PM W said...

No I don't, which is unfortunate because I have already planned out adventures in my head for us.

Should I make up one?

June 20, 2009 at 9:27 PM Anonymous said...

i have to say it now, cause i know i can never say it.

i am secretly in love with someone so much, but no one can ever know. i'm not sure if its really love love you know, but we
were part of each other's lives so much we're just not complete without the other's support.

and with the possibility of the person leaving, i'm just going to be left there, alone, again.

June 20, 2009 at 9:55 PM R said...

have u ever tried telling him? well, i know it's easier said than done......

June 20, 2009 at 10:49 PM Anonymous said...

with u.

June 21, 2009 at 1:26 AM m said...

i love someone far away.

sometimes i feel the urge to lean on the ones near me, but i remember that i already love someone. sometimes it's a strain to remember why i love him, but i just tell myself that yes i do, and it will work.

it's a leap of faith.

June 21, 2009 at 2:26 AM Anonymous said...

Maybe.. I'm scared. Also resolute. But overall I'm happy, I think, which is a lot.

June 21, 2009 at 2:36 AM vanilla said...

i thought i was.

i was so close to love, for the first time then the next and the next. but turns out that i never really got in love.

ohwells. i guess things that we desire the most just becomes farther and farther away as the urges grows stronger.

maybe it's me. i love my freedom too much that i can't bear to give it up.

June 21, 2009 at 7:27 AM mk said...

Secretly in love with that someone, won't it be more painful?

Seeing him standing besides me, so near yet so far. Hearing him talk about his meeting with this girl. Watching him happily getting on with his life but without me in the picture... ... the ' close' distance is just too hurtful for me. But i have no courage to let it go, turn my back and moves on.

June 21, 2009 at 1:05 PM t said...

secretly madly in love with p

June 21, 2009 at 2:32 PM Anonymous said...






June 21, 2009 at 3:42 PM m said...

i am in love with someone who falls in love with a stranger everytime he goes to shibuya.

June 21, 2009 at 7:50 PM E said...

i am in love with this certain someone whom i see almost everyday.
shes already attached to someone else.

they say the greatest pain is when the person is just next to you, you cant tell her that you love her. i know that pain. =(

June 21, 2009 at 8:23 PM mushroom said...

im in love with someone whom i nicknamed "cursive". he was a beautiful encounter, and we shared magical moments together.
he's miles away, and i miss him.

but i've got to let go now, cause he'd just turn everything, into a beautiful nightmare.

June 21, 2009 at 9:03 PM Anonymous said...

he was the perfect man. he still is. but he belongs to someone else. and though we know we love each other. secretly. we do not dare love and face the aftermath. we kept quiet and enjoyed the moments in silence until it was time we agreed to let it go. we do not dare wish for anything. and so we only have those memories to hang on to. ironically that's the deepest and most genuine love i've experienced.

June 21, 2009 at 11:37 PM C said...

i am in love with an idea based on somebody who will never, ever love me back - again.

time killed that girl.

i brought her to your cafe, once, and that was where we had one last perfect conversation - careless laughter + light streaming through the windows, so sure that replication could/ would occur.

i go to your cafe as often as i can bear to, because it is the easiest way to touch (the memory of her, us) without consequence.

and i try to sit at the exact same table as the time we did on the afternoon that everything changed.

June 22, 2009 at 1:10 AM R said...

C: i am sorry. keep the memory well.

June 22, 2009 at 1:11 AM R said...

mushroom: why did you let go of him? maybe he would be worth the beautiful nightmare.

June 22, 2009 at 2:16 AM T said...

Miles Away
(Carol Ann Duffy)
I want you and you are not here. I pause
in this garden, breathing the colour thought is
before language into still air. Even your name
is a pale ghost and, though I exhale it again
and again, it will not stay with me. Tonight
I make you up, imagine you, your movements clearer
than the words I have you say you said before.

Wherever you are now, inside my head you fix me
with a look, standing here whilst cool late light
dissolves into the earth. I have got your mouth wrong,
but still it smiles. I hold you closer, miles away,
inventing love, until the calls of nightjars
interrupt and turn what was to come, was certain,
into memory. The stars are filming us for no one.

Im secretly in love with that someone in my past.

June 22, 2009 at 11:23 AM mushroom said...

i dont think i have a choice actually. we were on a long distance relationship; him in tasmania, me in sunny island here.
i'd thought everything was going well between us, and i was even supposed to fly to brisbane for a holiday with him, coming sunday.
but he told me just on saturday night, that he actually doesnt loves me. so yea, that means all along, i was the only fool.

why do people say "i love you", when they dont actually mean it?

haha hey, my office's super nearby. will probably drop by one of these days again (:

June 22, 2009 at 6:22 PM strawberry bruises said...

she makes me laugh and understands my secret dreams.

today, i just realised the extent to which i am secretly in like with someone i haven't met.

June 22, 2009 at 10:15 PM Anonymous said...

she said laughingly, perhaps in jest, "if i were a guy, i would surely go for a girl like you."

i looked at her in the eye and said, "if you were a guy, i would fall for a guy like you."

And then there we lay, flat out on the road under the stars, falling asleep hand in hand.

I cannot tell what is love, how love should be, whether I love, or am loved.

Sometimes, you can't help it. Love just is.


June 22, 2009 at 10:36 PM R said...


that is heartbreaking.

June 22, 2009 at 10:52 PM Xinying said...

i've finally found the one, but the search doesn't end there. cos to love someone is always insecure and nerve-wracking- even when he/she loves you back.

June 23, 2009 at 9:54 PM Anonymous said...


The funny thing is, not really. Sure, there are moments I wish it could go further, but then again, sometimes all we need is a best friend. Someone whom we can hold hands with, put our heads on their shoulders, stand really close to, hug, laugh, cry. Some people go through life not ever finding their 知己. Even though it may not last, I'm glad I've met that someone.


June 24, 2009 at 1:14 AM mm said...

I am not sure. I have not met anyone lately. My ex of 3 years ago, I do not love him anymore. Sometimes when I see him in school, my heart would flutter. I would sneak a peak or two at him behind the cabinets. I would smile to myself, looking at him with his new girl. Being happy for him cos he has found the right one.

But I remember the breaking up, the pain. Crying every night, throwing tantrums at my friends who cared, checking his friendster and blog every minute, looking out for the new girls he is hanging out with. I took a year to get over it and it was amazing when I woke up one day and do not miss him anymore. That feeling was GREAT. It was like I had finally stepped out of hell. Slowly, I find myself not checking on him anymore. Maybe time was the medicine.

Whenever I meet someone new, I do not dare to bring the relationship closer. I do not know how to react if I had fallen in love with him or he had fallen in love with me. Because I do not want to go through the procedure of loving, hurting, falling and standing up again. It is so tiring.

The feeling of loving someone yet you couldn't tell him still exist in my heart. Maybe because of pride, or I am afraid to lose the friendship.

I still miss my ex sometimes. But I know my limit.

August 12, 2009 at 5:03 PM Anonymous said...

I'm still in love with him.

It was never meant to be; I should have known it from the start. He's too jaded and I'm just too much of a dreamer.
There are times when I get the impression I've finally moved on, but then something happens that serves as a rude awaking as to why I still feel this ache somewhere in my heart.

Just a couple of months ago, I fell in "like" with C. And I'm trying my darnest best to be as brave about this as possible now. (:


August 28, 2009 at 12:30 PM Charlene said...

all the people i like, or at least take a fancy to, i do not know. i read blogs of strangers and identify so much with what they write and am interested in knowing them, but never ever do anything. i dont know, maybe its pride, maybe its being preoccupied w what they would think, maybe its just not wanting to to be the 'active' one... sad.

August 29, 2009 at 10:28 AM Anonymous said...

I believe this is the first time I fall in love with someone, because it really hurts me.

He is my friend actually. I started to like him a couple of months back as we were in a team doing a group project. After we graduated, a few of us thought of setting up a company..hahah..and within a few weeks time he started going out with my good friend(in the company set up as well)...wahaha..There are lots of times when I feel like quitting the company, but i managed to stay on..I realli dunno how i can joke with them, tease them all the time while deep in my heart i am secretly in love with him..haaa...guess I m being 自讨苦吃。。